| Tuesday, September 30th, 2008 |
| 8:38 am |
Greetings from Boston
Today is a bit gloomy... but weather says the rain is holding off until tomorrow. Which bums me out but its okay... Last night we arrived in Boston. We stayed at this adorable Bed and Breakfast called the Samuel Seawall Inn. Im laying in a very comfortable King Size bed as I type this. So lets see... Chris and I's adventure has been pretty amazing so far. Cedar Point was awesome. Camping was fun snuggling close to my partner. :) Sunday we stayed in Philadelphia at a cute little hotel called the Club Quarters...it was a little different but definitely great. I wish we could have stayed a bit longer in Philly. It was so quaint and cute... very Colonial. We loved it! The brick roads were just too cute. We saw the Liberty Bell... and stepped on the ground where our Declaration of Independence was signed. Where George Washington walked... Thomas Jefferson... and so many other greats. The feeling was amazing. Then we went on a Ghost Tour.... That was the best part. We got to hear all the stories of the city as well as the haunted folklore tales. LOVED LOVED LOVED IT. They have this park... called Independence Park and check this out... it was a potters field... POTTERS FIELD for those who don't know is just a giant burial ground. When the yellow fever hit... and war... people were just thrown into the "pit". So below our feet was just bones. I think its pretty morbid that they have this "cute" little park there now. They never dug up the remains. I think he said about 8-10,000 bodies and parts lay there. (Once I post pictures I will tell you even more CRAZY details.) All and all I want to visit Philly again! We began our anniversary waking up and hitting the road.... we stopped in Washington Depot and ate lunch. (Gilmore Girls "Stars Hollow" was inspired by the town.) It was absolutely beautiful and I can definitely see where the show creator used this town as inspiration. The town really had places called Washington Depot Bookstore... Gas Station... and all that. And the leaves were turning and it was just beautiful. So so pretty. Anyways... we spent the night here in the Bed and Breakfast once we got to Boston. Celebrated ONE YEAR OF BLISS :) with a nice seafood dinner. mmmmmmhm! Now its off to a day of history and walking and B.O.S.T.O.N. BYE! |
| Friday, September 26th, 2008 |
| 7:44 am |
Im Leaving!
Yes thats correct. Chris and I are leaving for vacation!!!!!! Staying at my parents house tonight. Tomorrow first stop Sandusky Ohio... CEDAR POINT. CAMPING. Second stop Philadelphia! GHOST TOURS. PUBS. LIBERTY BELL. Third Stop.... laugh if you must but we are going to find the town Gilmore Girls "Stars Hollow" was inspired by. Eating at a diner there... then on to Yale... and other east coastery things.... Fourth Stop... BOSTON!!! Anniversary on that night of Monday... SEPTEMBER 29!!! yes thats also correct we have been married for a year and have not killed each other. :) Or reproduced. SCORE SCORE SCORE.... anyways what else can I say about Boston... Bed and Breakfasts... PUBS... Harvard!... Boston Tea Party... Cheers... Bunker Hill... Paul Reveres Ride.... Freedom Trail... (so much to do ...so much to see... not enough time.) Fifth Stop.. SALEM!!!! Now this is what we are looking forward to. Witch Trials. Ghost Tours. Haunted Bed and Breakfasts.... Harbor. Boat Rides.... Whales.... AAAAAAAAAAH I am freaking out... We are also going to Gloucester and camping... and kayaking... hopefully whale watching.... hiking... who knows. All I know is Chris and I are about to embark on an adventure. I am still thinking what this "Tour" is going to be called.... but anyways.... Goodbye ALL... Goodbye Chicago.... Goodbye work... Goodbye STRESS.... Hello Nice Getaway with just be and my favorite of favorites... My husband. :) Chris <33333 (Im excited.) |
| Friday, August 22nd, 2008 |
| 2:22 pm |
Tired.
God there are so many things that I am really tired with. Far too many. So this is me on my knees begging for change. I am happy with life... don't get me wrong. I am busy. Working. Living in the City. Married. Great. Great. Great. But is it selfish of me to want more? If I didn't push myself for more more more.... and everyone else did the same... how would we have successful people? Honestly? Am I wrong for thinking this. Im tired of always cleaning. It seems like if I am not glued to the computer editing... or shooting... then I am cleaning. I really hate it. I hate not being satisfied. Becoming satisfied has been harder and harder to reach lately. "Satisfied" I just want to fucking crush it. I want to be "GREAT". I want to feel like I can breath and not worry about what else I need to be doing. Im drained. I wish someone could make it better. ! I want to have a real day off. With no worries. Our economy sucks. I think thats where some of this "built up anger" is coming from. Everyone is going through it. I am not alone... but for real. "FUCK YOU USA...ECONOMY... Whoever else is to point fingers at". I am also tired of my damn lawsuit from our car accident. I get so aggravated just thinking about it. It's a lot of depending on others to do the work... and worrying that it is not getting done because no one has the decency to either pick up a phone to follow up or type an email. Really? Why?? I just want to get this settled. I want to feel better... and I want to buy my condo already.... <--being selfish again. There are numerous other things that are bothering me... but who cares. No one besides me really does... I just wanted to bitch. And most of the things are either personal or really probably make no difference in life I am just negative. Rawwwr. |
| Thursday, July 24th, 2008 |
| 2:47 pm |
Proud!
So I am happy to say that I am a new aunt and godmother! My sister had her baby girl on Tuesday night! Her name: Wednesday Rose. 8lbs 13 oz and 21 inches! She is absolutely gorgeous and healthy. -My sister is also doing wonderful. Though she looked tired, she was beautiful. I can't even begin to describe how proud she made me. She is going to be a great mommy and I can't wait till I get to spoil that child rotten. Things have been pretty busy for me. I have been working long hours with Tom- which is good because I need the money, and on top of that I am still learning every day. I am also doing side jobs which have also been making me exhausted. But its all good. I need to get myself out there and just work my little butt off so that I can build clients. I just shot the band Dot Dot Dot- which I think some of the shots turned out pretty rad. I am sending Roger their manager a disk today and once I work on the images I will post them up for all to enjoy. I know I will actually post them! -- I just hope Roger and the band is happy with what I came up with. I am actually going to start to work with more bands after this. I found that it might be a good niche for me to do. Bands always need photos... and good ones at that. So maybe that will turn into something. I just got off the phone with Lucky Pix. (The stockphotography site). They have accepted my first batch of images I submitted. So I am super happy about that. He also gave me a ton of projects to work on. Some that really excite me. I like receiving photo assignments. I just need to go out and make it happen now. - The one assignment he just gave me he said will pull in a lot of money, but he can't seem to find the photographer with the personality to actually go out and do it. He said that I am so approachable and nice that he thinks it might be right up my alley. I think he is right. --but I can't say what he is having me shoot just yet. It's kind of a secret ;) I am excited about my future... even though it seems like I will never get there. Lately I have just been playing ping pong with my brain. It typically goes like this: You're good. You will do okay. You will make it. You will gain clients and start making a great living. ... then its OH MY GOD the future looks like a black hole. How will I ever get work.... no one is ever going to hire me for jobs. Am I even good? Arrr I need to be creative and get out there... but arrrrrrrrrrr. I feel like I need a personal life coach or something. ;) It's weird but sometimes I feel like I am just going through the motions of life. I am this girl who is really really motivated but will I ever get there? Or its like I am playing pretend grown up. (sometimes I am not sure I consider myself one. -strange.) I no longer want to play make-believe and actually make it happen. |
| Monday, June 23rd, 2008 |
| 10:59 am |
Wow its been that long.
i don't really keep up with this thing anymore. but maybe i should. -i moved and lost some contacts with people. sorry for that. things are going okay here. busy. that is really the best word to explain whats been going on. if im not working or shooting then chris is playing a show or we are driving to a job or a show. i have some projects in the works. im doing some stock photography on the side. picking up odd end jobs here and there. really trying to focus on my portfolio to meet with future clients. its kind of fun and exciting....but scary at the same time. i find myself always questioning... am i good enough? chris hates his job....but hopefully he wont be there for too much longer. plan is for the band to go on the road in fall or winter time. good for him....sad for me. i will be that crazy dog lady (watchin fergie for josh and of course my penny.) but at least i will have some company. i will probably just be consumed to working even more than i already do...if thats possible. chicago is great. i would be lying if i said i wanted to live somewhere else. its nice to be here in the summer too. so much going on. i really need to try and take advantage of any free time i do have and go check things out. im still needing to have a date with the beach! chris and i are going to be godparents. my sister is having a baby girl "Wednesday" -isnt that a cute name. she is due in july. we are pretty excited for that. this weekend was fun. rock of love party/birthday party for chris. it was great. and i cant thank people enough for coming. especially all those bloomington folks who drove the distance just to see us. you guys are really the greatest friends. i wish you guys lived up here.... or that you were at least small enough so i could carry you all around in my pocket. :) - Rock of Love... youre tour might have ended sunday morning....but you may come back for reunion shows and other season appearances. :) PS. how is it that with our technology and digital driven age...did we only use film disposable cameras and polariods? hahahahahaha. *Loves* this weekend and the past week has made me realize friends from "friends". funny how random moments gives you clarity. i know that we have all changed... it would be pretty sad if we didnt. but i think that i am still the same "person". i still like the same things...im still Kristen. maybe more professional when it comes with work and life...but i still have fun. i like to hang out with friends. i like to cuddle and stay up late with my husband :) my 'boyfriend'. we still tell ridiculous jokes. we still find ourselves in the craziest situations and we always laugh about it in the end. i still make time for my friends despite having a husband. a family. a J.O.B. you can be grown up and still live a pretty fucking rad life.... i would give up anything to help a friend in need. i would go beyond my limits to make someone smile. i would go out of my way just to say hello if i had to. i hope my friends see this. i love you guys. it is just sad/disappointing when you realize that what you may do for someone is not returned. im hurt. but being with those who matter this weekend showed me that these a truebies. :) even those who have been from the past and have returned again. :) (Annietta!) you guys are all such great people and chris and i are extremely lucky. we need to actually be our age. not pretend we are older. younger. or what we think someone our age should be like. i am a very career driven woman and turning 23 in two weeks and i realize that there is so much to be lived. so many goals to reach. so much to do. but i am 23. i need to enjoy my time now and hold close all those who have been there. priorities. i know mine. :) Thank you again! |
| Thursday, February 28th, 2008 |
| 1:51 pm |
OverDue.
Oh my. It has been a long time since I have written in this thing. (or posted should I say.) I guess some updates are in order. Last time... I was waiting to get married. Well. I got married. It's amazing. Nothing really has changed except that I have two rings on my finger. I am now a Mrs. with a new last name. :) I now refer to Chris as my Husband. And I get to enjoy seeing some shiny bling on his ring finger. <3 Work. Work is good. I was really consumed in it for awhile. Seems like things are slowing down at the studio a little bit. BUT Im guessing that is the calming before the storm. I am also working on building a brand new portfolio for myself. It's kind of exciting. I just wish the weather was nice to go along with my bursts of creativity. Weather seems to kind of become my arch-nemesis. I say you only have one more month to annoy me fool! Chicago. Is my home. I am super homey here. Chris and I have a sweet little apartment. (Wish we could do some more decorating with it... in time.) Still don't know how long we will be residing there. Again. I hate the weather right now. I think it has put many of us in this horrible ugly black hole. Some call Depression. At least the sun is shining today. But as I type this we will probably get hit and dumped with 6 " of snow. Grrr. Surrender Dorothy. Amazing. The boys are recording in LA this week. I got to go with them from Friday and came home Monday. I wish I was back there. Least the weather was warm and brighter. Made me want spring! But anyways the guys are working really hard and from what I heard it was some good stuff. No scratch that GREAT stuff. They are working with producer Dave Cobb who is blowing up. He's extremely talented and I honestly can say that he is a perfect match for the guys. Can not wait to hear the finished product. I feel lots of good things are going to come from this. I will not say because I do not want to jinx it. But I am keeping my fingers crossed, wishing on every eyelash and everytime the clock strikes Doubles. So as you read... Chris is in LA. :( I have been all alone for three nights now and have three more to endure. I'm miserable. I want him back. But he needs to be doing what he is doing. My bed is lonely and Penny and Haywood are just not enough. How will I do this if he ever goes on tour for long periods of time? This is the first time we have been apart. Like Really been apart in 3 years. Maybe I just need to get use to it. Whatever I have to do... it's been a test on me. I just hope I am strong and confident enough. I wish for that everyday too. I miss my husband. Thats all that is filling my head right now. That and I have a shit ton of work to finish... but I would rather wallow in pity that I am without right now. So that's been kind of whats been going on. Oh and I also have been dreaming about going back to MAUI. Our honeymoon was amazing and I would so love to go back. I swear time stopped and I could breath so much easier. (Weather is again destroying me.) Thats the update. |
| Monday, September 24th, 2007 |
| 10:13 am |
It's Monday!
AND I AM GETTING MARRIED IN FIVE FREAKING DAYS! Holy Shit. This is so crazy. It is FINALLY happening. All the preparing...and planning... and it is almost here. This time next week I will be Mrs. Barker and on a beach somewhere in Maui! Whoot! |
| Tuesday, May 29th, 2007 |
| 11:04 pm |
Busy Bee
To all of those whom I have lost touch with since I moved...which really has only been a week, but still. I LOVE my new job! Its great. Tom is amazing and I could not be in a better position. The opportunity is something that I do not take for granted. I find myself constantly saying "I am SO LUCKY". Tomorrow I leave for Minneapolis for a shoot. I fly out at 1 and I will be returning the next night around 9. Sounds like the trip is going to be fast and busy. I like that though. Its my first night away from Chris in over a year! I am not looking forward to that, but I suppose it is something I need to get use to! Updates... I found three wedding dresses that I want. Friday I will make the decision on which one I will get. I have also found bridesmaid dresses. September 29th. Whooooo. I dont have that long to go. |
| Wednesday, May 9th, 2007 |
| 3:33 pm |
What is in store?
So much has happend in the past week. It is ridiculous. I suppose I will start from the beginning. I have been doing much better since the accident. I am walking, I feel better, and in a week or so I might be able to even start running. Chris and I got a brand new 2007 Mazda 3 on Friday. We are still dealing with insurance.... my insurance company has to go after the dumb bitch's insurance and get their money. My dad has hired a lawyer to get me money that Chris and I lost (work and such) and naturally pain and suffering. I never understood "pain and suffering" and honestly no money can make up for how I felt the past few weeks. We will just have to wait until the lawyer makes his move and hopefully we will see some money that will help us out a bit. I have officially finished college. It is pretty exciting, however I feel terribly old. I keep thinking how I felt when I started school. I was out on "my own" and had the first taste of freedom. However, I wasn't really "on my own". But anyways my parents made me do the whole "ceremony" thing. Chris's parents met my parents for the first time. We were both so worried (since they are both so different) but things went really well, and they seem to like each other. During the ceremony I kept thinking "Wow I am really done". I sat by my friends. I thought about the first time I actually met the great people next to me. I thought how much I was going to miss the "journalism" nerds. And I thought about how much I love everything I have been given. I kept looking down at my ring. I do that whenever I get nervous or need a taste of security. Then I got a text message from Chris saying he was behind me. I looked back, found him on the balcony and my heart went crazy. To see him smile and be proud of me... made me actually proud of myself. To know that he is going to be my family, and the one who I will spend the rest of my life with was intoxicating. I am the luckiest. The ceremony took far too long. But the moment that we all got to turn our tassels, I can honestly say that every graduate in there had a cheezy grin on their face. We deserved it. I guess that moment was worth it. I really didn't want to do the whole "walking" thing, but looking back...that moment and the moment I saw Chris was well worth it. I finished my last semester with straight A's, and on the Dean's List. That was the right way to finish. To the class of 2007.... Congratulations! As in the word of Elle Woods "WE DID IT" :) lame i know. The celebration afterwards was great. Dinner was wonderful. Chris drank in front of his dad! OH MY. Then my parents went bar hopping with us. It was great. My mom got hit on. My dad loved the bands we saw. It was awesome. But as they say good things must come to an end... yesterday after I finished a photo shoot... Chris and I were in ANOTHER DAMN ACCIDENT! This time we were stopped at a light waiting to turn (so close to home) and a lady tried to beat the light ended up getting T-Boned and pushed into our brand new car. Only 4 days old! Now we have a smashed in left side and about 2,000 bucks of damage. We are going to fight to make sure that we are given all new parts. Since my car was brand new, I want it to be exactly how it was when I bought it. No "bending" and twisting the parts to fit back to how they were... So we will see how that goes. And once again this was due to a lady on her cell phone. There really needs to be a law. I dont know how many times I have said this, but honestly...I dont think I can take another accident. How am I to feel safe in a car? I am not concerned about my driving or Chris's driving...it is everyone else. Please everyone...start driving responsibly. The lady had her three little kids in there (all okay..one has a nasty bruise on his face) but luckily nothing too serious. Right now I am so drained. I dont even know why this has happend again. And now to end... we are moving on the 19th. And my first day of work is Tuesday the 22nd. I need to move. I am officially done here. :( |
| Wednesday, May 2nd, 2007 |
| 6:28 pm |
I am...
OFFICIALLY done with school! Uh Huh thats right. Even if I failed my last two midterms miserably I will still get Bs in the class. BUT right now I am looking at straight A's. Not a bad finish. Alright I just wanted to brag and make everyone who still has finals pissed off! hahahahaha. |
| Monday, April 9th, 2007 |
| 10:57 pm |
I am so thankful...
TO BE ALIVE. Chris and I got in a terrible car accident on Saturday on our way home for Easter. We are doing alright...just really banged up and bruised. I have body whip lash and am in a neck brace right now. We were wearing our seatbelts which the paramedics said saved our lives. We swirved on I65 near Lebanon to avoid hitting head on a woman who lost control of her car went over the median broke the cables on our side and came into our lane. We lost control went off the road hit a futon that was on the side of the road and then hit a cement drainage ditch that sent us air born where the car flipped. We landed upside down, the car finally rocked and we flipped back over right side up. Our beautiful new car...DEAD....The lady was on her cell phone the entire time...which we are assuming caused the accident. We were really lucky and I cant tell you how happy I am to still be able to say that I am still going to have a wedding. Things could have been a lot worse. But to everyone... we really need to do something about people using cell phones while driving... many accidents are occuring on a daily basis due to people losing control of their car while driving being distracted on their cell phones. "Motorists who use cell phones while driving are four times as likely to get into crashes serious enough to injure themselves, or others. " I really think Indiana needs to pass a law banning cell hpones while driving. I use to think that it was stupid, but after my experience I have realized the dangers and possible risk taken. Now I have to wait to hear back from the police as they got the accident report wrong. So it is going to be a long and drawn out process and if we have to we will most likely have to sue the lady who caused us to crash. |
| Monday, February 19th, 2007 |
| 1:23 pm |
Going to the Chapel...
and we're GOING to get marrrrrieed! Yep that is right. I am going to become Mrs. Barker! Chris got down on his knee in New Orleans over the weekend. :) I am so excited and can not WAIT to be able to officially call him my husband. :) I am going to grow old with my most favorite person in the world. <333 Love you all and hope everyone is doing well. <3 xoxo |
| Sunday, January 21st, 2007 |
| 6:04 pm |
Da Bears
This weekend was fun. Really fun. I love not having work and having some time off. I saw Michael Jackson live in concert at the Bird last night. (okay maybe not THE king of pop but after a few drinks, he was the REAL THING.) Stomp the Yard owns. My friends rock. Things are going great. Chris is making dinner. I am sitting on the couch. OH AND ONE MORE THING.... THE BEARS ARE GOING TO THE SUPER BOWL...yup thats right. now we just have to patiently wait on Peyton Manning to try and lead his boys on the path as well. Hopefully he doesn't choke...it is finals. We will see. DA BEARS... Monsters of the Midway. MISTROS of the NFL stage! they are the B.E.A.R.S |
| Wednesday, January 17th, 2007 |
| 12:47 pm |
Thank god..
Chris bought me a nice warm jacket for Christmas. Otherwise I would be crabby,cold, and bitter. <3 Thank you to the man I plan to marry. February... New Orleans. Yeah thats right. I can't wait. Another fun vaca for me and my fancy. |
| Thursday, December 28th, 2006 |
| 7:03 pm |
Is it May Yet?
Dear All, I hope the holidays treated everyone well. I hope Santa was equally as pleasing to your needs. I want to apologize to those who I did not send out cutesy text messages to saying I WISH YOU A MERRY CHRISTMAS...or even leaving myspace comments. I promise though, everyone was in my thoughts and prayers. I was extremely busy while visiting home up north. <3 I also hope everyone is enjoying the season... for many the winter break. I know that I really needed one, but now I am anxious for the new and last semester. As my break consisted of running around, shopping and visiting friends and family I have now returned back to Bloomington to work the rest of break. However, I do have some good news. My job interview went better than I could have expected. Chris and I will officially be moving to Chicago in May/June time period. (as long as we can get out of our lease early)... I have been offered an assistant position of the amazing photographer Tom Maday. It was the first interview I went on and the job I have had my eyes on for over 2 years. So as all can imagine... I am EXCITED and relieved. <333 And to miss Gabby and Justin, Susie and her friend and last but not least Grant thank you for that awesome modeling you did. The pictures turned out beautiful and everyone keep your eyes pealed for links as well as prints! Hope everyone is doing well! Enjoy the break. Sleep in and Hibernate. <3 |
| Tuesday, December 12th, 2006 |
| 10:33 am |
Im taking a break.
From STUDYING.... yeah finals are kicking my ass. One final down, three more to go and one final portfolio. Im taking adderall...so hopefully it helps me burn through the mass pages of american history. Okay so I just watched the Ciera video. What the hell? Has anyone seen it? Where she is with dancers where big black thug clothes. It's so absurd. I don't understand what goes through peoples minds while making a video. .......And the puppy Bella just peed on the floor. Damnit! Gotta go cleanup after that monster. Anyone want a puppy?? jk. |
| Tuesday, November 28th, 2006 |
| 11:28 am |
People are Silly!
This is going to be a bumpy ride. The next two weeks. Let them test my endurance. The past week was rough, and these next few ones will only grow worse I am afraid. However I have my fancy to fall back on. My loooovvver! I also had a fantastic weekend with some FANTABULOUS friends. Allie and I get along so well. I like actually having a girlfriend that is on the same page. Girls drama. Who needs that shit! Johnny moved down here as well. I got him a job at the studio working with ME. Fun Fun Fun. Chris and I had a slumber party on our living room floor last week. We set up the Christmas tree and then slept by it the next two nights. It was adorable. <3 And our tree will kick your trees bark off! I swear to god it would! (SHUT UP RANDY...) for all of you who know who Donny Baker is. haha. Friday we all played Guitar Hero. Cassie came over and we formed a band called Scotch tape. Listen for our single, it should be out shortly! Saturday Allie and Crystal and everyone came over... again guitar hero... and again more fun. Then we had a sleepover on our living room floor again. Accept Chris and I slept in our room while johnny, allie, and crystal fought over blankets and pillows in the living room. Muahhaah. It was fun times. Did I mention my lover is SEXXXXY! <3 Christmas is coming.... i cant wait. i like being spoiled! |
| Monday, November 13th, 2006 |
| 2:24 pm |
Date Due
I have a love bite on the side of my neck and I can't help but feel as though I am sixteen again. Im exhausted. My eyes don't seem to be alive, and when I look at myself in the mirror its just a reflection. I feel like a zombie or one of the characters in a movie where all they do is throw back pills to feel numb. I don't have to have the pills though. I need this semester to be over. Im ready to move Chicago where Chris and I can get our apartment where we know we arent just going to stay in it for a year. I want to feel more permanent, instead of a tumble weed who is taking a long rest in a college town. Soon. Soon enough. I have love. The greatest love. When our eyes meet or our lips touch he breathes back that life in me that I feel is lost or forgotten. This is why I can make it. <3 |
| Monday, September 25th, 2006 |
| 12:24 pm |
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| Thursday, September 14th, 2006 |
| 9:28 am |
Selfish. <3
I havent updated in a long long time. :Slaps forehead!: I type that out as an opener too often. There just hasnt been a lot of time. A lot going on, but nothing to drastic. I got sick yesterday, at first I thought it was a hangover, but then I puked all day and couldnt hold down anything including water. A smoking hot temperature all day and that fantastic headache. Argh. I hate being sick, Im starting to feel better today. No throw up as of yet, but the head and a slight temperature lingers. :( I rolled over last night and the moonlight cracked through the blinds magnificantly. It brushed his cheekbones perfectly and all of my insides tightened up. I moved forward wrapped by body on his and kissed him gently and efficiently, enough to wake him up a little for a smile. I am the luckiest girl in the world. I can not picture my life without him. Love makes me selfish. But in a good way. He is all mine. <3 and I am all his. This is going to be one exciting life. <333 |
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